{"id":235212,"date":"2026-04-21T13:38:21","date_gmt":"2026-04-21T17:38:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dantompkinsweb.com\/AHM\/?p=235212"},"modified":"2026-04-21T14:11:21","modified_gmt":"2026-04-21T18:11:21","slug":"standing-at-the-edge-of-the-dark","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dantompkinsweb.com\/AHM\/standing-at-the-edge-of-the-dark\/","title":{"rendered":"Standing at the Edge of the Dark"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>[et_pb_section fb_built=&#8221;1&#8243; _builder_version=&#8221;4.16&#8243; global_colors_info=&#8221;{}&#8221;][et_pb_row _builder_version=&#8221;4.16&#8243; background_size=&#8221;initial&#8221; background_position=&#8221;top_left&#8221; background_repeat=&#8221;repeat&#8221; global_colors_info=&#8221;{}&#8221;][et_pb_column type=&#8221;4_4&#8243; _builder_version=&#8221;4.16&#8243; custom_padding=&#8221;|||&#8221; global_colors_info=&#8221;{}&#8221; custom_padding__hover=&#8221;|||&#8221;][et_pb_post_title meta=&#8221;off&#8221; _builder_version=&#8221;4.27.6&#8243; _module_preset=&#8221;default&#8221; title_font=&#8221;Roboto|||on|||||&#8221; title_text_align=&#8221;center&#8221; title_text_color=&#8221;#000000&#8243; title_font_size=&#8221;24px&#8221; global_colors_info=&#8221;{}&#8221;][\/et_pb_post_title][et_pb_text _builder_version=&#8221;4.27.6&#8243; background_size=&#8221;initial&#8221; background_position=&#8221;top_left&#8221; background_repeat=&#8221;repeat&#8221; hover_enabled=&#8221;0&#8243; global_colors_info=&#8221;{}&#8221; sticky_enabled=&#8221;0&#8243;]<\/p>\n<p><strong>The Road Into Nowhere<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>We were visiting my son in Las Vegas, and one evening my wife, my son, my daughter, and I decided to take a drive\u2014out toward Area 51, near the small town of Rachel.<\/p>\n<p>It\u2019s hard to describe just how empty that drive is.<\/p>\n<p>No houses.<br \/>No gas stations.<br \/>No traffic.<br \/>No cell service.<\/p>\n<p>Just high desert stretching endlessly\u2014mountains in the distance, scattered cacti and Joshua trees, and the occasional cow standing silently along a road that runs eerily straight for miles.<\/p>\n<p>As we got closer, we stopped at the iconic roadside sign:<\/p>\n<p><em>Extraterrestrial Highway.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>We took a few pictures and kept going.<\/p>\n<p><strong>A Room Full of Stories<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>About an hour before dark, we came near the entrance of Area 51 that was announced by another iconic sign: AREA 51\u2014WARNING: RESTRICTED AREA. DEADLY FORCE AUTHORIZED.<\/p>\n<p>While we waited for darkness, half-joking about having an alien encounter, we made our way to the landmark Little A&#8217;Le&#8217;Inn\u2014the only building, let alone the only place to stop for miles.<\/p>\n<p>Inside, it felt both ordinary and strange.<\/p>\n<p>A few tourists.<br \/>A handful of locals at the bar.<\/p>\n<p>And two very odd, geeky-looking guys\u2014<br \/>the kind you\u2019d expect to see in an episode of\u00a0<em>The X-Files.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Along the walls and behind the bar were shelves of souvenirs\u2014some cheap, some oddly expensive\u2014t-shirts, mugs, stickers, alien figurines.<\/p>\n<p>It all felt like a quiet attempt to turn mystery into something you could carry home.<\/p>\n<p>People came looking for something unexplained\u2026<br \/>and left with something they could hold.<\/p>\n<p>But what caught my attention wasn\u2019t the place\u2014it was the people.<\/p>\n<p>What are their stories?<br \/>Why are they here\u2026 on a Thursday night\u2026 in the middle of nowhere?<\/p>\n<p>I talked with the owner\u2014a man in his fifties, covered in tattoos, with a hardened face and a British accent.<\/p>\n<p>He was from London.<\/p>\n<p>After his divorce, his wife moved their son here.<br \/>So he followed.<\/p>\n<p>Not for the desert.<br \/>Not for the business.<br \/>Not for the mystery.<\/p>\n<p>But for his son.<\/p>\n<p>At first, he was guarded.<br \/>But as we talked, he slowly opened up.<\/p>\n<p>He told me about seeing UFOs\u2014four times in seven years\u2014being chased by fighter jets across the night sky.<\/p>\n<p>Then he said it plainly:<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIt\u2019s a lonely place\u2026 but I\u2019m here to be with my son.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>That was his story.<\/p>\n<p><strong>The Weight of Isolation<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>When we left, it was fully dark.<\/p>\n<p>No lights.<br \/>No traffic.<br \/>No buildings.<\/p>\n<p>Just\u2026 darkness.<\/p>\n<p>We drove a few miles past the back entrance of Area 51, then pulled off the road and stepped out into the night.<\/p>\n<p>It was cold. Windy.<\/p>\n<p>But the cold wasn\u2019t what I felt.<\/p>\n<p>It was the darkness.<br \/>And the aloneness.<\/p>\n<p>And what struck me even more was this\u2014<\/p>\n<p>I wasn\u2019t actually alone.<\/p>\n<p>My wife, my son, and my daughter were standing right there with me.<\/p>\n<p>And yet, the place was so desolate, so silent, so stripped of life.<\/p>\n<p>It was not just the absence of people I felt\u2014<br \/>but the absence of everything that usually tells you that you\u2019re okay.<\/p>\n<p>No ambient noise.<br \/>No distant lights.<br \/>No sense of life.<\/p>\n<p>And in that silence, something happens inside of you.<\/p>\n<p>You feel small.<br \/>You feel exposed.<br \/>You feel unanchored.<\/p>\n<p>There\u2019s a <em>relational isolation<\/em>\u2014even with others nearby, you\u2019re aware of how fragile connection can feel in a place like this.<\/p>\n<p>An <em>emotional isolation<\/em>\u2014a quiet uneasiness rising in your chest.<\/p>\n<p>Even an <em>existential isolation<\/em>\u2014the awareness that you\u2019re here\u2026 but without any clear sense of why it matters.<\/p>\n<p>It felt like standing on the edge of the world\u2014<\/p>\n<p>peering out into a darkness that didn\u2019t just surround you\u2026<br \/>but pressed in on you.<\/p>\n<p>And I felt something deeper.<\/p>\n<p>The darkness wasn\u2019t just empty.<\/p>\n<p>It felt threatening.<\/p>\n<p>Like something essential was missing.<\/p>\n<p>No meaning.<br \/>No warmth.<br \/>No life.<\/p>\n<p>Just\u2026 absence.<\/p>\n<p><strong>When Light Enters the Story<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Without even trying, my mind went back to the opening of Scripture.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cIn the beginning\u2026 God created\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAnd God said, \u2018Let there be light.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Light didn\u2019t just appear.<\/p>\n<p>God spoke it into the darkness.<\/p>\n<p>He brought order.<br \/>Beauty.<br \/>Life.<\/p>\n<p>He began telling a story\u2014one marked by connection, presence, and goodness.<\/p>\n<p>A story where we are not alone in the world.<\/p>\n<p>Standing there, I realized something I don\u2019t often feel this clearly:<\/p>\n<p>This is what life feels like without that voice.<\/p>\n<p>Without God speaking light into the darkness.<\/p>\n<p>And I thought about my own life\u2014<\/p>\n<p>how, through Jesus, light had entered my story.<\/p>\n<p>Meaning, purpose, connection\u2014<\/p>\n<p>not things I created\u2026<br \/>but things I received.<\/p>\n<p><strong>The Man in the Desert<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>And then I thought about the man at the restaurant.<\/p>\n<p>He chose a place of isolation<br \/>to stay close to his son.<\/p>\n<p>I wondered what his nights felt like\u2014<\/p>\n<p>after the restaurant lights went out,<br \/>and the door was locked,<br \/>and he stepped alone into the darkness of an empty parking lot<\/p>\n<p>I wondered how he made sense of his life there.<\/p>\n<p>And I wondered if he knew\u2026<\/p>\n<p>That there is a larger story.<br \/>A better story.<br \/>One he was made for.<\/p>\n<p>A story where the light doesn\u2019t flicker and fade\u2014<\/p>\n<p>but enters the darkness<br \/>and cannot be overcome by it.<\/p>\n<p><em>\u201cThe light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.\u201d (John 1:5)<\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>The Overlap<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>That night in the desert was a sacred overlap.<\/p>\n<p>For a moment, I felt the weight of the smaller story\u2014<br \/>isolated, fragile, fading into the dark.<\/p>\n<p>And at the same time, I became aware again of the larger story\u2014<\/p>\n<p>God speaking light,<br \/>bringing life,<br \/>inviting us into something more.<\/p>\n<p>And I realized something I don\u2019t want to forget:<\/p>\n<p>You don\u2019t fully appreciate the light<\/p>\n<p>until you\u2019ve stood in the dark long enough<br \/>to feel what\u2019s missing.<\/p>\n<p><strong>A Question for You<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Where in your life have you learned to ignore the darkness\u2014<\/p>\n<p>instead of letting it awaken you<br \/>to the story you were made for?<\/p>\n<p>[\/et_pb_text][et_pb_team_member name=&#8221;Dr. Scott Engelman&#8221; 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